The Color Green

I was awake at 10 minutes till 9am this morning.  After dressing for the day taking a brush to my hair and teeth I made my way to the lower level also known as the kitchen and living room.  I stood there looking at the contents of my fridge wondering what I should eat. I knew what I was going to drink of course, coffee, oh but wait I didn't have any cream. Oh well I guess I was making a Luck's run immediately. I pulled my boots and coat on, snagged the keys and made my way to the vehicle. At Luck's I bought half&half, fresh squeezed orange juice and two containers of Australian coconut yogurt, yum! Back at home,then about 10:10am, I cracked open psalm 139 and made coffee and ate yogurt and wrote in my journal and began my day of prayer.  I say began, because I've noticed that if I start my day in prayer, He tends to keep me there for the rest of my day.  

On Friday as I looked out the window I saw a large picture of grey, all different shades of it. The colors that weren't shades of grey popped  out here and there. Even if they did pop out a little they were muted by the grey. Or maybe they were just over powered by the grey. This was my perspective at the moment.  The muted pops of color are washed out glimpses of a truer picture, a picture without the filter of sin. A picture that faintly flickers in my hearts eyes. A place without sin has light that helps us see all the colors clearly, light that is warm and home.  today it's white.

We are, all of us flawed, or under a curse of sin.  All of us!! I think it is easy to look at others and expect them to do and be what we think they should do and be. We say to ourselves in our heart, that they are the problem. We pray why won't you change them God to be what I want them to be, or why won't you make them stop doing the thing that is causing the problem or pain.  In this we forget that we could be the problem that we are flawed and cursed and we could be part of the problem. we forget to look at ourselves and consider that we are the ones who need to do and be differently. We don't consider we need to be changed because we are to busy trying to get others to be different or change.   But, we,all of us, are flawed or under a curse of sin.  Including me! I need to do and be differently to be the one who is changed!!!  I, We, are not able to change unless we seek God every minute every hour of each day.

I'm rich! So many times I want more of this or that. I have more than enough and yet I buy, buy, buy, until the place I live isn't big enough for all the stuff I don't need or use. The truth is I don't need a bunch of stuff to survive in fact I really don't need much.