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Things are shity!

Today, I'm sitting in the pain of the difficult things of life. One of the most difficult is that of human relationships. So often, I wish they weren’t so hard, and that we would understand fully what it takes to love one another well. But ultimately, the reason relationships turn shity is because we are all about us, ourselves, what we want and don’t get from another person. I am no exception to that selfish attitude. But how can we change? How can we not think of ourselves when it comes to being in a relationship with others? There is this feeling of “I need to protect myself,” or they might hurt me, or “I might not get what I want out of this person I am so intimately connected with.” (“They may not meet my needs”) The truth is, that yes we do need each other, so often I hear people or even pastors say all we need is God, (a lot of worship music says the same thing.) I do not believe that is true. I believe with all my heart, that yes, we need each other. God has created us for relationship with each other. In light of that truth, our relationships with one another are not meant to be a replacement for our relationship with Him.



As a kid I remember a song we used to sing at camp, the main course of the song said, “You shall love the lord you’re God with all you’re heart soul and mind and you shall love your neighbor as yourself”, I remember being really glad in my heart that God wanted us to love him first, and to love the others he created along with us. To me, those two things seemed to be His biggest concern. As an adult, I see why those two things are the most difficult things for us to do. We screwed up the order of things we love our selves first, not very well I would have to add, then, we realize there is something missing so we suspect it’s because our mother or father or brother or sister or husband or wife didn’t give us something we needed, so we give up on them and see if there might be someone or something out there that will fulfill that deep NEED what ever IT is, because really we are not sure what IT is, or we think we know what IT is but then we get IT and oh no that wasn’t IT, so we move on to the next PERSON or THING and give that a go. I am not stating something new here; there have been many people to understand the human plight of searching for the thing that will fulfill their every need, want and desire. I’m just as guilty as the next. We all need to remember that God is IT! No matter how we try and deny that very real truth, IT will always be so. No matter if we decide to not believe in that truth or not, no matter if we chose to be angry at Him, or get pissed off because He isn’t what we want him to be, or, we can’t control Him, or put Him into a nice neat explainable box so we can wrap our little minds around who he is. He is still God, he is not tame, he is still good, and he is still the IT, still the one person, thing that will “complete us” meet our needs. He is the first Last beginning and End. No matter how hard we try to avoid that truth there is no way, and there will be no way in the end to avoid the truth of God.

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