Yesterday, I was reading the book of first Corinthians chapter 13; it’s the chapter about love. Before I sat down to read I was feeling spiritually attacked, the attack consisted of worry, doubt, hopelessness, and discouragement with my physical self. Sometimes the struggle between me and my emotions is so intense. They are powerful things these (female) emotions. I have discovered that if you let them they will rule you. Writing about emotions is not a new thing for me, and battling it out with them is an everyday war. Ya, I think you know who, likes to use them to make me crazy and to keep me from stopping to come before God. All that said, yesterday around five pm, I collapsed on my bed with my bible and journal in hand. Why I wonder does it take us so darn long to figure out that we need to be still and give it too Christ. That He has said he will never leave us or forsake us, that He is always there wondering why we haven’t spoken with Him lately. 1 Cor. 13: 4-7 Love is patient, love is kind, it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices in the truth. It always protects, always trusts . . . it always trusts . . . right there is where I got stopped. How many times do we say ya, we believe He has called us His own, and that He is always there, and that he knows the plans He has for us and He loves us. I lose control of those emotions when I fail to trust that He will provide. After awhile of a really amazing time in His presents and after clearly hearing Him say trust me. My emotions rested in that trust. I never sleep better then when I trust that He has called me His and given His Grace so abundantly.
I have not the ability to speak or write elegently, though I long to share the thoughts in my head. My thoughts sometime come with strong feelings, so most often the safest place for my thoughts to be are in writing, speaking has in it an element of speed, which may cause my thoughts to be spoken with out thought. As I have learned, words spoken in haste and with strong feeling influence may be harmful even distructive. I should be one who speaks truth, but if the truth I speak is surounded by harshness and reaction, if it is not gental and thoughtful, indeed the truth may be spoken, but it may not be heard, or taken to heart. This is why it is said of “the reckless tongue”, “ It pierces like swords” Proverbs 12:18. Should I than be silent? Yes I think I should if I can not be wise in the things I say, if I do not think about what I say before I say it I should be silent. Proverbs 12 Whoever loves discipline loves knowledge,
but whoever hates correction is stupid. Go...
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