This life . . . It's not exactly what you wanted? I say that as a question because really I'm not totally sure what you wanted. It seems to me that it wasn't this so much. You must have had this in mind though, because you chose to give us a chose. You didn't just put us under a spell that would make us fall in love with you. Your desire for us was not for us to be your puppets, ( controlled by the puppet master, all feelings and actions and thoughts are the masters) you made us real. We chose not to listen to you, our creator, we chose to dought you, with the help of the puppet master. ( satin ) Now we really are under a spell. We have been turned to wood, and are controlled by him. This describes our world, some of us are slowly coming out from under the spell. Jesus Christ is the creator, and the spell breaker, we just need to believe that, and he well some day say to us, now, " YOU ARE A REAL BOY"
How had I come to believe, that the deep things of my heart and mind were not important? Who told me they didn’t care about the things I was feeling or thinking about? The truth of the matter was, that no one actually said I don’t care about what you think or feel, they just never bothered to ask. Never being asked is another way to let someone know that they are not valued. In response to some of the most important people in my life not bothering to pursue my young heart and mind, I believed I had nothing to offer or give that would be of any value to anyone else. I believed I was stupid. I heard it over and over in my heart and head with out a second of doubt of its truth. Not until my twenty sixth year did the truth that I believed about myself reveal it’s self as a lie. There were six of us who met each week, five younger women and our leader, a woman the five of us had approached to ask if she would be willing to let us learn from her and be mentored and guided ...
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