What is the best way to pursue your heart? And if I do will you let me in? This is a new thing for me; you might say that it requires some effort. As I wonder if I should walk into this new thing, I am aware of something about myself that I wasn’t before. When I’m just getting to know someone, specifically men, it is not easy for me to ask questions on the fly. So will you please be patent with me, while I, like a nerd reach for my list of questions that I have spent time writing down for the next time we speak. I hope you like playing twenty questions.
How had I come to believe, that the deep things of my heart and mind were not important? Who told me they didn’t care about the things I was feeling or thinking about? The truth of the matter was, that no one actually said I don’t care about what you think or feel, they just never bothered to ask. Never being asked is another way to let someone know that they are not valued. In response to some of the most important people in my life not bothering to pursue my young heart and mind, I believed I had nothing to offer or give that would be of any value to anyone else. I believed I was stupid. I heard it over and over in my heart and head with out a second of doubt of its truth. Not until my twenty sixth year did the truth that I believed about myself reveal it’s self as a lie. There were six of us who met each week, five younger women and our leader, a woman the five of us had approached to ask if she would be willing to let us learn from her and be mentored and guided ...
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