There was time to be still for a moment today. There was time to stop and breath. there was time to take in the sunshine. As I sat there still in that time I realized my mind was blank and uninspired. Empty that is how it felt. I began to wonder into that empty spot in my brain and then I ran into the Holy Spirit. He reminded me that God was present and told me I was not. Emptiness of my own making is not necessary. He is always present!
How had I come to believe, that the deep things of my heart and mind were not important? Who told me they didn’t care about the things I was feeling or thinking about? The truth of the matter was, that no one actually said I don’t care about what you think or feel, they just never bothered to ask. Never being asked is another way to let someone know that they are not valued. In response to some of the most important people in my life not bothering to pursue my young heart and mind, I believed I had nothing to offer or give that would be of any value to anyone else. I believed I was stupid. I heard it over and over in my heart and head with out a second of doubt of its truth. Not until my twenty sixth year did the truth that I believed about myself reveal it’s self as a lie. There were six of us who met each week, five younger women and our leader, a woman the five of us had approached to ask if she would be willing to let us learn from her and be mentored and guided by her for a time.
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