Not sure why, but I feel weepy today. Most likely I'm getting ready to have that time of the month, though I'v also been fighting some kind of sick too. The sick feels like it's getting the better of me today. That being said, all these things reminde me of how much I need God! I fall on the floor and tears stream down my cheeks and in the mess I cry (really cry tears) to God. As I lay there, sick and sore, face wet, nose red and runny, as I cry my prayer to Him my sobbs slow and I am in the moment. All of the sudden I'm just still and quite even my thoughts have stilled. I breath, I keep talking to God, but mostly, I'm quite, and still. He remindes me of his words, proverbs, Psalsms, John. I feel like a little kid on the floor, He is there with me. carring me, always listening to me, talking to me. I forget some times, and I forget so long, that I have to get sick or have a bad day before I stop and acknowledge His constant presents. He is always with us, all the time. We have to be willing to be aware. Or be sick! LOL Oh when will I ever learn? Thanks for Your Grace Oh God!
It is a blessed day, when one doesn’t have to be woken up by an alarm. The best feeling is the one where you slowly stir out of the dream and gain awareness of the place where you are. Your eyes have not yet let in the first light of the day and you lay there taking in an awaken passé of breathing. The best feeling is knowing that you don’t have to get out of bed at a rush and you don’t have to rush to the bathroom or rush to take a shower or get dressed. The best part of a day off is when you’ve worked hard the two previous days, and therefore are even more grateful to go slow and take in a day of your own speed.
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