Maybe it's because I love film so much, but the day to day living is better with a tune. One of the reasons I like coffee shops is that they play cool music. Starbucks plays a lot of the kind of music I like to listen to,I think that's one of the reasons I go there most, to get my coffee on. When I think about that,I guess that in general I must tend to be drawn to things based on the sound track going on eather in film or place. I don't always have music on, sometimes I need quiet, but, most of my days have some kind of music playing in the back ground,(Example of that is 8 hours of relaxation music while I massage out tight muscles) after a long day of tranquil music I get into the car and crank the thrash music it's so relaxing! LOL!
How had I come to believe, that the deep things of my heart and mind were not important? Who told me they didn’t care about the things I was feeling or thinking about? The truth of the matter was, that no one actually said I don’t care about what you think or feel, they just never bothered to ask. Never being asked is another way to let someone know that they are not valued. In response to some of the most important people in my life not bothering to pursue my young heart and mind, I believed I had nothing to offer or give that would be of any value to anyone else. I believed I was stupid. I heard it over and over in my heart and head with out a second of doubt of its truth. Not until my twenty sixth year did the truth that I believed about myself reveal it’s self as a lie. There were six of us who met each week, five younger women and our leader, a woman the five of us had approached to ask if she would be willing to let us learn from her and be mentored and guided by her for a time.
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