What ever keeps me close to you Oh God, put it in my life. Though it hurts and aches though it wrenches my heart and soul over and over again, yet will I trust you. At times it pulls me down under the air, I grasp for the pain to stop. I cry out to you, soon my days and nights are ceaseless prayers that bring tears to my eyes for hours until I fall asleep only after I'm weary with struggle. Sometimes I am woken by the struggle once again, I cry out to God, and again I drench my pillow with tears, I finally fall asleep. I'm crying out to you Oh God over and over. I guess that's good if it means that I walk so close to you, but damn, it really hurts. Why does it take pain for us to remember to just rest and abide with you, to trust you, to talk to you, to give up the things we struggle with the most. I'm sure that this post is a broken record, but I'm broken and there is nothing else for me but to be on my face.
If we try and live our lives apart from God our sins will soon over take us. The lie that this world wants to tell us is that we are ok with out God. There are people in this world, who from our perspective are good, and they have all their ducks in a row, they are always nice to everyone, and they have amazing self-confidence and the perfect job. They love their perfect job and that provides them with just the right amount of finical stability. They are fit and they take care of them selves, and the environment. They have a great relationship with their significant other, and with their kids. In our perspective, our sinful view, they have it all, and all with out God. Unfortunately our perspective isn't the one that counts. We cannot see we are blinded by the sin that we are a part of. Our perspective is not the one, which at the end of this life will count for eternity. I guess though that if you don't believe in an eternity, in a life beyond this one then it doesn...
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