The Color Green

um, ya I apparently don’t know how to just be in the moment, or enjoy a simple thing. I realize, that I may sometimes have the over analyze, suck the life approach. Why the hell do I do this? oh ya I’m really flawed. I think I need to learn how to open my big mouth and insert my foot into it, just so I don’t say something that will hurt someone else. I’m not very flexible that may be difficult, I wonder if I could insert someone else’s foot into said mouth.

Yesterday, I was reading the book of first Corinthians chapter 13; it’s the chapter about love. Before I sat down to read I was feeling spiritually attacked, the attack consisted of worry, doubt, hopelessness, and discouragement with my physical self. Sometimes the struggle between me and my emotions is so intense. They are powerful things these (female) emotions. I have discovered that if you let them they will rule you. Writing about emotions is not a new thing for me, and battling it out with them is an everyday war. Ya, I think you know who, likes to use them to make me crazy and to keep me from stopping to come before God. All that said, yesterday around five pm, I collapsed on my bed with my bible and journal in hand. Why I wonder does it take us so darn long to figure out that we need to be still and give it too Christ. That He has said he will never leave us or forsake us, that He is always there wondering why we haven’t spoken with Him lately. 1 Cor. 13: 4-7 Love is patient, l

Messy Room by Shel Silverstein Whosever room this is should be ashamed! His underwear is hanging on the lamp. His raincoat is there in the overstuffed chair, And the chair is becoming quite mucky and damp. His workbook is wedged in the window, His sweater's been thrown on the floor. His scarf and one ski are beneath the TV, And his pants have been carelessly hung on the door. His books are all jammed in the closet, His vest has been left in the hall. A lizard named Ed is asleep in his bed, And his smelly old sock has been stuck to the wall. Whosever room this is should be ashamed! Donald or Robert or Willie or-- Huh? You say it's mine? Oh, dear, I knew it looked familiar!

Yesterday, Pastor Dan talked about the life Jesus Christ lived to save ours. Very often we think about and talk about the truth of the death he suffered to redeem us before God. He also lived a sinless life, for our redemption as well. Yes he gave us the ultimate example of how he desires us to live, but the point of his LIFE was Grace! He knew we would not be able to pull it off so He did it for us. All of us have sinned, fallen short of Gods Glory, even in our trying to live a life for God we will still fall short. But if we believe God and what he has done, we have Grace, peace, Joy and the Love of the Father. Even when even now here in this sinful imperfect world we stumble and we certainly will, we can be certain of who’s we are. We can know He did it, Jesus gets all the Glory. Thank you Father!